Depression Recovery

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>gotta begin cleaning this apartment tomorrow just in case i do >anything really silly like invite someone here for coffee

That’s a sign, and not a silly one at all. It’s momentous. The day I opened up the drape so I could look out was another one of those small gestures which was symbolic, corny as it sounds (life is cornball anyway, right?). I’m happy for you, Hexe. Take it easy with the writing, though. Small increments as much as possible. GreyAdagio (p/e) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – >i seem to be in my right mind this week able to see depression as >it is.  as something that can be defeated. >i was asked to do a proposal to create a web site for the >american women’s club here.  i did it and had to take it to a >newsletter meeting this morning.  i had joined the staff of the >newsletter but only attended one meeting.  this morning i was >only going to drop off the proposal and leave. >well . . .  now i have to write an article on the origins of >thanksgiving for thursday to meet the Nov. deadline.  and i >agreed to write an article on Seasonal Affective Disorder.  and i >agreed to write a review for 2 books.   >tried to ‘write’ my brain freezes.  i can only write here, >impromptu, responding.  i can’t think and write!!   >scheisse!!!  see what happens when the sun shines and you leave >your apartment!!!   >one of the women at the meeting is also SAD, i think i could >’bond’ with her but her home is in Antigua and she returns next >month for 6 months!  scheisse!!!  she did say she’d take me with >her >i gotta try this, i gotta start beginning my life.  i’m fed up >with me as i have been.  hell, i am mean enough to live another >20 years!!! i want them to be good years so i can enjoy being >mean.   >gotta begin cleaning this apartment tomorrow just in case i do >anything really silly like invite someone here for coffee.  gotta >find a shrink.  gotta, gotta, gotta,  gotta think one thought at >a time so i don’t overwhelm me. >Hexe >(p& e which will self-destruct upon reading) >Thought of the day: >Nothing in the known universe travels faster than a bad check.

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> i seem to be in my right mind this week able to see depression as > it is.  as something that can be defeated.

And you’ve shared what you’ve learned to others…like me! [snippage] > tried to ‘write’ my brain freezes.  i can only write here, > impromptu, responding.  i can’t think and write!!   > scheisse!!!  see what happens when the sun shines and you leave > your apartment!!!  

You can!  And you will!  You must be really talented!  I’m not surprised in the least!  I’m proud, in a distant but friendly way!  And envious! You go girl! [snippage] > i gotta try this, i gotta start beginning my life.  i’m fed up > with me as i have been.  hell, i am mean enough to live another > 20 years!!! i want them to be good years so i can enjoy being > mean.  

You’re not as mean as you might like to think you are!  ; ) I want you to live a good long time, too…selfish me! > gotta begin cleaning this apartment tomorrow just in case i do > anything really silly like invite someone here for coffee.  gotta > find a shrink.  gotta, gotta, gotta,  gotta think one thought at > a time so i don’t overwhelm me.

Can I come for coffee??! I hope you find a good "shrink"–my psych-doc isn’t all that wonderful but I couldn’t do without my therp-doc… lotsa love and good thoughts! <<(((HEXE)))>> –bev b.

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>i seem to be in my right mind this week able to see depression as >it is.  as something that can be defeated.

  That’s exactly what I was talking about in a post that I just wrote!! >i was asked to do a proposal to create a web site for the >american women’s club here.  i did it and had to take it to a >newsletter meeting this morning.  i had joined the staff of the >newsletter but only attended one meeting.  this morning i was >only going to drop off the proposal and leave. >well . . .  now i have to write an article on the origins of >thanksgiving for thursday to meet the Nov. deadline.  and i >agreed to write an article on Seasonal Affective Disorder.  and i >agreed to write a review for 2 books.   >tried to ‘write’ my brain freezes.  i can only write here, >impromptu, responding.  i can’t think and write!!  

  Sure you can, just take everything in small pieces.  Besides, what do you think rough drafts are for? >scheisse!!!  see what happens when the sun shines and you leave >your apartment!!!  

  I think for you it is a wonderful step!! >one of the women at the meeting is also SAD, i think i could >’bond’ with her but her home is in Antigua and she returns next >month for 6 months!  scheisse!!!  she did say she’d take me with >her >i gotta try this, i gotta start beginning my life.  i’m fed up >with me as i have been.  hell, i am mean enough to live another >20 years!!! i want them to be good years so i can enjoy being >mean.  

  Yes!!! Cha ching!!! >gotta begin cleaning this apartment tomorrow just in case i do >anything really silly like invite someone here for coffee.  gotta >find a shrink.  gotta, gotta, gotta,  gotta think one thought at >a time so i don’t overwhelm me.

   That’s it, one step at a time… one step at a time.  Hell, I can’t even walk and chew gum at the same time.   LOL Dazzy Deb Heaven Doesn’t Want Me, and Hell is Afraid I’ll Take Over

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->i seem to be in my right mind this week able to see depression as >it is.  as something that can be defeated. >i was asked to do a proposal to create a web site for the >american women’s club here.  i did it and had to take it to a >newsletter meeting this morning.  i had joined the staff of the >newsletter but only attended one meeting.  this morning i was >only going to drop off the proposal and leave. >well . . .  now i have to write an article on the origins of >thanksgiving for thursday to meet the Nov. deadline.  and i >agreed to write an article on Seasonal Affective Disorder.  and i >agreed to write a review for 2 books.   >tried to ‘write’ my brain freezes.  i can only write here, >impromptu, responding.  i can’t think and write!!  

hexe, write explaining to me what seasonal affective disorder is. then write to me again about each of the 2 books. after that, go through and take out all the "dear Laz" parts. (and you can send the reviews to me anyway, I’d like to read them) Laz x — wolfbitch Laz Spashett "damaged people are dangerous, they know they can survive"

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Hexe wrote > >well, after beginning the Thanksgiving article one way and then >doing more research and changing my mind and then following >another link and going that way instead, i left the computer and >went to the kitchen with a pencil and paper and did it the old >fashioned way.  she asked for 600 words, i gave her 900. >Laz, you’ll like this part; she wanted the origins of >Thanksgiving, well, they go back to Ishtar, Ceres, Demeter,  the >earth mother.  we began as pagans, the rituals haven’t changed >only the names of the players.

Are you saying you wrote your origins of Thanksgiving article with Pagan harvest festivals, as opposed to the Indians and Pilgrims stuff? *Very* cool! Karen

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>tried to ‘write’ my brain freezes.  i can only write here, >impromptu, responding.  i can’t think and write!!   >scheisse!!!  see what happens when the sun shines and you leave >your apartment!!!  

My dear Hexe, I’m absolutely positive that you’ll write proficiently (as always) and just WOW the socks off them!!…the pagans rituals..only you would have thought of that…what a lead-in to Thanksgiving!!…LOL…I LOVE it!!! Love ya, Cece   /–’"–/_,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,         /)         .(_Y_.)//’  ._   )  `._ `. -..-’ (());-”  (())-,’     {{{.-’           Le Chat x-no-archive: yes in headers

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->>tried to ‘write’ my brain freezes.  i can only write here, >>impromptu, responding.  i can’t think and write!!   >hexe, write explaining to me what seasonal affective disorder is. >then write to me again about each of the 2 books. >after that, go through and take out all the "dear Laz" parts. >(and you can send the reviews to me anyway, I’d like to read them) >Laz >x >what a wonderful idea!  i actually thought of doing this. >pretending someone had asked a specific question and then just >answering talking through the hole in my head as usual.

well, I asked you the questions! :+)  so, write to me! >well, after beginning the Thanksgiving article one way and then >doing more research and changing my mind and then following >another link and going that way instead, i left the computer and >went to the kitchen with a pencil and paper and did it the old >fashioned way.  she asked for 600 words, i gave her 900.

well done! >Laz, you’ll like this part; she wanted the origins of >Thanksgiving, well, they go back to Ishtar, Ceres, Demeter,  the >earth mother.  we began as pagans, the rituals haven’t changed >only the names of the players.

that’s cool! :+) >found a site on the origins of Christmas, maybe i’ll do that for >next month.  take my mind off SAD, right, gotta keep my mind on >it to write about it.

sounds like a good plan. how about doing the origins of halloween too? (samhain!) >the 2 books are "Mason & Dixon" and "The Woman Who Walked Into >Doors".  should have chosen "The Ultimate Hitchhikers’ Guide .." >hell, i’ve read those books twice!  hell, i would have gotten the >hard copy for free!!  scheisse!  maybe, Cathy won’t like it and >give it to me after she reviews it, she doesn’t like fiction.

you can always tell her that you’d like the book if she doesn’t want it. nothing like being blatant! >ps  now that i have that out of the way, i’ll see about the >pictures from Denmark.  ;-)  i’ll slap them up and send you and >Megan the url to download, easier that way.

true enough. Laz xx — wolfbitch Laz Spashett "damaged people are dangerous, they know they can survive"

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<snippage> >} gotta begin cleaning this apartment tomorrow just in case i do >} anything really silly like invite someone here for coffee.  gotta >} find a shrink.  gotta, gotta, gotta,  gotta think one thought at >} a time so i don’t overwhelm me. >coffeedidsomeonesaycofferilikecoffeeilikecoffeelotzdozzenteverybody

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