Depression Recovery

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hello group. I’m not reading the group so if you have any desire to respond you’ll have to do so in email.  I’m just using you all as a place to put this.  Sorry to be so selfish. I just wrote a whole long post about something I need to get out of my system, felt horribly ashamed by it all and deleted it. So now you have no idea what I’m using you for. sigh…  I wish I knew if this was a consequence of the lupus… KCat in Houston Alt.Support.Lupus Frequently asked Questions (FAQ) http://www.ghg.net/schwerpt/aslfaq20.htm My Lupus Pages http://www.ghg.net/schwerpt/mypage.htm "She’s running to stand… still" (Bono)

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> I’m not reading the group so if you have any desire to respond you’ll > have to do so in email.  I’m just using you all as a place to put > this.  Sorry to be so selfish.

I don’t read this group often myself.  But it’s sure nice to know it’s here when I need it. > I just wrote a whole long post about something I need to get out of my > system, felt horribly ashamed by it all and deleted it.

I do that a lot, write things to people and then tear it up, or press the cancel button on my e-mail program.  What I never do is mail it when I’m mad.   Hope it was  as theaputic for you as it is for me. > So now you have no idea what I’m using you for.

I guess so I’d sign your guest book. at http://www.ghg.net/schwerpt/mypage.htm But in using me, I found your wonderful links to depression sites, http://www.ghg.net/schwerpt/deplink.htm  most of which I’d never seen before.  Thank’s I’ve bookmarked your page and will come back often. Your site is wonderfully done!!!  > sigh…  I wish I knew if this was a consequence of the lupus… Remember what you wrote on your depression link page, which you dedicated to all that fight "The Beast" on a regular basis. "We are here to help others that know this monster only too well. In the process we help ourselves." Love,  Monte > "She’s running to stand… still" (Bono)

There is a beautiful poem with that title at http://members.aol.com/chris18384/Bran12index.html

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Beautiful message tigress It’s people like you that make me want to go ahead and "do" today!!! Thank’s for being here. ~Monte – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Please write if you need to.  Sometimes we need to be a bit selfish. > Neither you nor I can help everyone here.  I know this.  I also know > that sometimes simply saying (or writing) words helps.  If it bother > you simply spoiler it. > Please get whatever it is out of your system.  Everyone lets me.  Two > days ago in a strange state of mind and pain I walked past the > bathroom where I planned to cut my wrists and instead wrote a little > message.  Funny thing the desire started to fade and I was able to cry > for the first time in months.   I was selfish.  I can never give back > the love and concern I recieved. > Now it is my turn to worry.  I will worry about you KCat if you don’t > write out of your system what is troubling you. > I always hope that there are enough people here to help those who are > the most down.  I hope I will be able to, but I don’t think it’s a > requirement. > KCat if you need to speak:  speak!  I will listen though I probably > won’t respond because I have to answers for anyone right now.  If you > can understand me about this then perhaps you can understand that it > would be okay to post when you know you can’t offer help.  We fight > each day the best we can.  I believe you suffer more than me, also. > My body is falling apart, but I don’t have lupus.  Lupus is a curse on > humanity. > Be good to yourself KCat and I hope the new year will be better than > the old.  Maybe sometime I will have a job and be able to buy things > from your web site (SHAMELESS PLUG FOR KCAT’S BUSINESS).btw would you > mind repeating that url.  My last computer was fried my a power surge > and I lost many things. > Tigress >hello group. >I’m not reading the group so if you have any desire to respond you’ll >have to do so in email.  I’m just using you all as a place to put >this.  Sorry to be so selfish. >I just wrote a whole long post about something I need to get out of my >system, felt horribly ashamed by it all and deleted it. >So now you have no idea what I’m using you for. >sigh…  I wish I knew if this was a consequence of the lupus… >KCat in Houston >Alt.Support.Lupus Frequently asked Questions (FAQ) >http://www.ghg.net/schwerpt/aslfaq20.htm >My Lupus Pages >http://www.ghg.net/schwerpt/mypage.htm >"She’s running to stand… still" (Bono) > — > For more information about this posting service, contact: > If you want an anonymous account, visit our sign-up page: > http://asarian-host.org/emailform.html

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