Depression Recovery

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>i was always welcome here and that >was good to hear and i told them >that i’ve tried but felt like i >would be using you people and >this place and i guess i still >feel that way.

you can be whereever you want denise >i’ve been lurking and watching and >waiting and it seems safe here (no, >i can’t explain what i mean) but i >think if i started to post here, it >might turn unsafe kinda fast.

no it wont. this is not ASD. >the feelings build up, you know?

yeah >yeah.  i think you do. >why do i feel so awkward and strange? >why do i feel invisible lately?  why >do i keep wanting to die when the >worst is finally over and there is >hope ahead now?  a new relationship >is blooming, i’ve made plans to move, >i don’t cry all day every day any more, >and it really only hurts "too much" when >i have to get in my car and drive around >this godless city.  

i dunno, except your in a lot of pain. it wont always be like this denise, it will get better. promise. >i wish i had me a pair of them ruby slippers >cause there really ain’t no place like home.

yeah , i know, there isnt… >denise >(i kept trying, sir, until i did it.)

((((((((( denise )))))))))) yes keeep trying.

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>i was always welcome here and that >was good to hear and i told them=20 >that i’ve tried but felt like i=20 >would be using you people and=20 >this place and i guess i still >feel that way.

hmmm… well, in a way – we’re here to be used.  I mean – if all you need is to be able to vent now and then or express something and you don’t feel up to other contributions than that is fine.  I’m having to do the same for the most part.  Though today I’m a bit chatty.=20 >i’ve been lurking and watching and >waiting and it seems safe here (no, >i can’t explain what i mean) but i >think if i started to post here, it >might turn unsafe kinda fast.

You don’t have to explain – we all have fears, unfounded or not, about interactions with other people – be it real life or "net life". >why do i feel so awkward and strange? >why do i feel invisible lately?  why >do i keep wanting to die when the=20 >worst is finally over and there is=20 >hope ahead now?  a new relationship >is blooming, i’ve made plans to move, >i don’t cry all day every day any more, >and it really only hurts "too much" when >i have to get in my car and drive around >this godless city. =20

sounds like things are improving – but though that gives us hope, we still have to be realistic and cautious.  There’s nothing wrong with the way you’re feeling – but you’re not invisible. I see you! =20 >i wish i had me a pair of them ruby slippers >cause there really ain’t no place like home.

Amen.. Take care, denise and write anytime. kcat — For more information about this service, send e-mail to:

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>i was always welcome here and that >was good to hear

Yup!!! > and i told them >that i’ve tried but felt like i >would be using you people and >this place and i guess i still >feel that way.

But that’s what asdr is here for… >i’ve been lurking and watching and >waiting and it seems safe here (no, >i can’t explain what i mean) but i >think if i started to post here, it >might turn unsafe kinda fast.

Don’t think so. >the feelings build up, you know?

Do we EVER… <g> >yeah.  i think you do. >why do i feel so awkward and strange? >why do i feel invisible lately?  why >do i keep wanting to die when the >worst is finally over and there is >hope ahead now?  a new relationship >is blooming, i’ve made plans to move, >i don’t cry all day every day any more, >and it really only hurts "too much" when >i have to get in my car and drive around >this godless city.  

I’m feeling fragile also. Not sure if this is going to last. I think it hurts more to crash after things are going well for a bit. Very nervous. >i wish i had me a pair of them ruby slippers >cause there really ain’t no place like home.

Tornadoes swept you away, eh?? >denise >(i kept trying, sir, until i did it.)

Welcome to Oz. (watch out for the wicked witch) Terrapin p&e’d unless otherwise noted

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