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snipped from catlover’s post >Next step is to go looking for a record deal.  If I get one, the >record co. take over and pay for/organise the artwork and distribution >and publicity.  If I don’t get one, I will have to do it myself which >means I’ll need to finance it somehow.  It’s looking good to get one,

 Mixed blessing these distributors. One of the deejays at the station was just ’splaining to me the other day some complex thing with distributors getting the cds in the stores and with the release of the next one buying back some of the remainers. This is all good until you’ve established yourself enough to not need a distributor. Then with the remaining cds in stores needing to be bought back (or the dealer won’t make room for the new release) you somehow wind up owing alot more money to the distributor you no longer use. At least I think that’s the essence of what he was telling me. It was about 5:45 am we were having this conversation, shortly before my show starts. I don’t know if this info is helpful or not. I know it is rather horse-before-the-cart of me to be thinking of your *next* cd and the ones after that. I can’t wait to be playing you on my show. It is exiting to be living a dream, even if it is only 2 hours a week. The idea of helping you with yours makes it that much more rewarding. Love, Sam p&e’d

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> Hi everyone > It’s all done – and it’s *good*!!!  Even *I* think it’s good –

yeah… KOOL!! anna — rainbows

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Hi CL. This is wonderful news. I know how hard you’ve worked for this and I’m very excited for you. Love you. Stan > Hi everyone > It’s all done – and it’s *good*!!!  Even *I* think it’s good – it > still has to be mastered but has been mixed.  I managed to slide in > all the overdubs we’d planned plus blagged Alan into allowing me a few > more – I was on a roll and doing things in one or two takes, so we had

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I mean, just imagine, you will have a permanent record of yourself as an artist with all those years leading up to *right now*. Will you be posting a sample to alt.waves, maybe later on? Let us know. Make sure Sexy Sadie. Remind her that work comes first, even if she pouts. GreyAdagio (p/e)

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catlover wrote >Oh boy, I am so very very tired.  But excited, pleased and even proud >of myself – me, proud of myself???? Still, there’s always a first for >everything

Congrats and you deserve to feel proud of yourself. That’s quite an impressive accomplishment. I hope you get your needed rest. >But me being me I have to have something to worry about.  Have got the >anwerphone three times when phoned Pete – late Sunday and twice this >evening.  I have silly irrational fears that he’s either a) been run >over by a truck or b) met some lovely young thing and fallen in love >at first sight.  Duh.  I think I’ll take myself and my silly addled >old brain to bed.

I know this type of worry so well. Hopefully after you’re rested, you’ll hear from him soon. Karen — You say I contradict myself? Of course I contradict myself! I contain multitudes! Walt Whitman

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I want to buy your CD!!!! Dazzy Deb Heaven Doesn’t Want Me, and Hell is Afraid I’ll Take Over

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>I want to buy your CD!!!!

Me too!!!   Timmy

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Me three! I mean I want to buy one also. Michael, in San Antonio, Texas http://www.intersatx.net/people/what/ – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->I want to buy your CD!!!! >Me too!!!   >Timmy

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I want a copy too.  How?  Where?  Joyce What’s in a name?  A rose by any other name would smell as sweet.

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>>=20 > Hi everyone >=20 > It’s all done – and it’s *good*!!!  Even *I* think it’s good –

and lots of people asked when/where they can buy it. It probably won’t be out for several months.  The mastering’s still to be done (it’s looking like next week but Gary is busy.  However, he’s heard some of it and likes it, so I am very pleased). Next step is to go looking for a record deal.  If I get one, the record co. take over and pay for/organise the artwork and distribution and publicity.  If I don’t get one, I will have to do it myself which means I’ll need to finance it somehow.  It’s looking good to get one, I think,  because Al and Derek think so, and if Gary likes it, it must be good – he’s worked with the best and still does. Provisional title is "Who Needs Spring" which is one of Ruth and Alan’s songs.  Pete suggested I just call it "Spring" but I’m not sure.  I plan to push it in Europe and the USA as well as the UK and have a list of people to contact, including one in the United Arab Emirates.  Also Skulmobile who posts here sometimes does a radio show in the US.  She’s interested in playing some of it on her show. So it’s all happening, but not sure when.  Meanwhile I am chasing my tail as usual so I’m afraid I’m completely behind with my email.  Will catch up ASAP but please bear with me. Love catlover =20 >yeah… KOOL!! >anna

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Hi everyone It’s all done – and it’s *good*!!!  Even *I* think it’s good – it still has to be mastered but has been mixed.  I managed to slide in all the overdubs we’d planned plus blagged Alan into allowing me a few more – I was on a roll and doing things in one or two takes, so we had more time than I had thought.  Even so, I was doing overdubs last Monday from 11.00 a.m.   The guitarist did his overdubs first which took about an hour.  We all thought he didn’t need to do any, but he said he was unhappy with some of it, so he did the things he wanted to and everyone is happy.  I finished mine at 10.30 that evening (with a couple of breaks, and lunch, and also an hour where Mick did his overdubs (he didn’t have many to do and they were all minor things). Then Alan and Derek mixed one song to set the levels on the faders, and we called it a day at 12.30 a.m.  Even tho’ I hadn’t booked any more studio time, Derek offered me the following evening, so we started at 8.45 and finished – at – 3.30 a.m by which time I was propping my eyelids up with matchsticks.  I had large amounts of strong coffee, which had a strange effect on my nerves (a bit like I used to get when I took speed all those years ago) but was able to drive Alan and myself back to Beckenham from Bexley, where the studio is – only about a 20 minute drive so it was OK.  We *still* hadn’t finished, so it was back in the studio on Sunday, from 1.00 p.m. to 7.00 p.m. It’s going to Polygram probably at the end of this week or early next week to be mastered – the machine that does it is called Sadie so I’ve christened it Sexy Sadie!=20 Between Wednesday and Sunday I tried to rest – ha di bloody ha – and spent a great day in London with Pete on Friday.  I spent far too much money but have bought some great CDs, including two I didn’t even know were out on CD; I ordered some lovely new glasses – first new pair for six years and very flattering. They will be ready in two weeks because I have to have high refractive index lenses (or I look like I’m wearing the bottom of a lemonade bottle in each eye – not on!).  I also bought a bikini for my holiday in Majorca next month – and a big glamorous straw hat! On Saturday morning I felt very crashy indeed and Pete and I ended up talking at far greater depth than we ever had before.  He knows I love him, he knows I regretted having told him so, and he said that it didn’t matter because he knew I loved him anyway.  He also said he meant it when he said he loved me too.  He says he thinks I don’t have any hidden agenda, like so many women do.  The only hidden agendas I have – and they are not hidden ’cause I’ve told him – are loving him and wanting to see as much of him as possible.  As to the rest – he knows I will never want kids, and that I used to think I wanted to marry again but don’t think I do any more.  Sometimes I think I don’t even want to live with somebody else again – but the jury’s out on that one because I do get very lonely sometimes.  Truth is, I don’t know what I want except that I want to sing Saturday night I had a gig on HMS Belfast, moored in the Thames.  Dave was on it (sax player on the CD) which was nice because I hadn’t seen him since the initial recording in January.  The gig was the weirdest. We had to be on board by 7.30 – and it’s a nightmare place to unload gear, you have to walk for miles down zigzagging walkways over the river, then put your gear in a cage-like lift down to the deck.  The contract said we were to give them some piped music for them to have while they were dining (so I took my portable CD and an Oscar Peterson Trio CD).  Then we were to get our meal, drinks and go on at 9.30, and play to 12.00.   We had our meal – and very nice it was too – and some drinks.  But we didn’t get on at 9.30! What actually happened was they ate late, then came the speeches (it was a vintage car society dinner and prizegiving) which went on and on and on!   We finally got on at 11.30.  Because we’re such warm and wonderful people we played on to 12.45.  They loved it and were very appreciative of being given the extra time (as was the agent when Mick told him today).  Then we had to get all the gear off the Belfast, back to the car.  So it was about 1.45 time we’d done that.  Got home at 3.00 or so.  Went to bed at 4.00 because I can’t wind down straight after a gig – I need to potter around and come down slowly.  Couldn’t sleep; got up at 5.00 in the end and took 30 mg of Valium.  That did the trick.  Up again at 9.45 to drive up to Beck to fetch Al and go to the studio.  We finished up having Chinese food at midnight by way of a celebration.  Had the morning off work today (annual leave) and had a damned good kip.  (Merkins – that means a sleep ) I am getting nightmares thinking how much money I’ve put up front for the CD.  It’s cleaned me out financially.  But it was worth it.  I have got something to be proud of, something that will take me a long way towards where I want to be, up there getting the good gigs and the musical respect.  Alan and Derek both think it’s terrific and Alan has no doubt we will get a record deal.   If I do, it’s likely I will get my money back from the record company and they will handle artwork, pressing and distribution. =20 Oh boy, I am so very very tired.  But excited, pleased and even proud of myself – me, proud of myself???? Still, there’s always a first for everything But me being me I have to have something to worry about.  Have got the anwerphone three times when phoned Pete – late Sunday and twice this evening.  I have silly irrational fears that he’s either a) been run over by a truck or b) met some lovely young thing and fallen in love at first sight.  Duh.  I think I’ll take myself and my silly addled old brain to bed. Love catlover — For more information about this service, send e-mail to:

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