Depression Recovery

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 I am very likely to scream "SHUT THE FUCK UP" at > the top of my lungs and try to rip the door off the hinges/ > knock down the wall/ etc… as I storm off.

Done it…can’t do that now. ) i’m far too composed nowadays..now..let’s go to 1994, and that’s a different matter. I like me now. ) Thanks tho.   However, I really can’t > recommend this approach to you, I just wanted to let you > know that I know what you are going through.

Thank you. ) Glad to see you about again, too. > Welcome back, sugah!

)  well..that smiley is sincere..however a true smile shall come when i don’t face that shit anymore… that will be a day of contentment. > — > Keith Hardwick

The Enigmatic One, cautiously looking about. waving sincerely, not whatever that term is people use on here to say i’m angry/manic etc. Melanie..my name for damn near a month.

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My dear, when I am being unjustly berated by a so called loved one, I am very likely to scream "SHUT THE FUCK UP" at the top of my lungs and try to rip the door off the hinges/ knock down the wall/ etc… as I storm off. I find that few people will continue to give me shit after such a display, and they may even feel sorry for me when I refuse to get out of bed or eat for the next 3 days. However, I really can’t recommend this approach to you, I just wanted to let you know that I know what you are going through. Welcome back, sugah! — Keith Hardwick web page is up at   http://home.att.net/~keithncarol/web_page.htm Lots of good info for newcomers to alt.support.depression.manic  and soc.support.depression.manic!

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Well well, well. I somewhat recovered from my deepest depression since, perhaps may…last attempt then….and well…like clockwork..things are falling apart just as i get cheerful-ish. What do you say when your mom has been up for too long without sleep..doing stuff, and watching weather reports…and you need to take the car out to drop off a friend visting. (It’s 10:00 at night…we’re both eighteen..but mom’s just watched that BP 20/20 report…making vast, disillusioned comparisions with my experience and this guy’s.) You take your friend home, it’s two blocks over…and mom has told you be back in five. So..you get your cd an a book and you realize you are like one mionute over that five minute time. No real curfew mind you. But..you get home..and she starts in on why you are such a failure, how you amount to nothing in their household. You stay calm..it hurts to hear this crap..but you stay calm. She brings up she thinks you need to get involuntarily checked into a hosp…cos you’re attitude isn’t right…well, could it be the fact your attitude sucks is that you were cancelled from starting a new assignment at work til notification..and you were up all night listening to the sound of Tropical Strom Frances beating at your house with tornados an floods? yes..we got flooding..so bad matthew couldn’t walk from his house three blocks over to mine becuse of the bayou that overflowed..and made it impoossible to reach me..anyways… What can i do when she degrades me? I always wind up crying..cos it really hurts..and plus..i know my moods are off slightly..i am not beligerent, i am just slightly disconcerted because of work. I know others have dealt with mothers like this.  I need your support. Seriously. This youth needs all the support she can get… Not in any mood except sleepiness…and slight wishful thinking..wishes consisting of mom treating me better, and work doing the same. The Enigmatic One, Melanie.

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